How I feel when I'm around you - Ch.9

-Nikki-
I still can't believe it.
Shavo and the guys invited me to spend Christmas with them at their house!
I was already preparing myself to spend this holiday in a miserable way as already done in the years before, but instead I'll have company and it'll be a Christmas with a real "family" made of people who appreciate me as I am, make me feel good and don't judge me as my biological family did.
I'm so excited!

After coming home from work, since I've got nothing to do, I already start packing, better early than late. I open my closet and in that moment I realize I haven't got too much formal or elegant clothes that are suitable for a holiday like this, then I think that Serj and the guys probably won't wear tuxedos, so it isn't a really big issue... after quickly writing a list of things I need I start picking up stuff and putting it in a bag. I'll take with me my most "formal" shoes, my black creepers, along with my Dr Martens; I add another little bag filled with whites, socks and tights. Half of the baggage is done, I only need to add clothes.
While going through all the apparel my eyes settle on something I didn't even remember I took with me: a short and black velvet dress. Pictures come up in my mind, one of me wearing that dress, and another of me noticing Daron's gaze stuck on me.
I smack myself on the forehead, trying to stop that fantasy.
How the hell did this come up in my mind?
My brain is conspiring against myself, great...
However I pick up the dress and put it in the luggage together with a short tartan skirt, various jumpers and sweaters and two pairs of jeans (one of which is shredded). Well, my things are ready, I'll add the last things the day before... I hope that in the meanwhile my mind won't start going against myself building up fantasies and mental trips about a certain guitarist.

The day before Christmas Eve I wake up late in the morning in a peaceful state of mind: my holidays started today and I've received my pay and I'm so happy!
While having breakfast I take some time for thinking; I'd really like to make a present for each one of the guys, but I don't know them well and I don't know what to buy, so for now their present will be my presence as Shavo said and I'll also help them doing things.
Taking a break from the chores during the day, I text Shavo.
"When can I come tomorrow?"
"Whenever you want!"
"I texted you 'cause I dunno, better if you tell me"
"Ok, come in the afternoon, even late"
Later in the evening I fall asleep easily and smiling, as rarely happens.