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Hi everyone!
I figured out that it's been a long time since the last time I wrote a journal here, although some months ago I started uploading stuff again (mostly pics taken in my occasional trips), so here I am!
The last journal I wrote dates to 2 years ago; many things happened in the meanwhile.
In 2016 I lost another relative, some personal bad stuff happened and at the end of the year my younger cat Minou we adopted back in September 2015 died. Also I put an end to some friendships that were becoming toxic to me.
In 2017 I made several new friends, including some musicians, and these friendships were quite impacting; overall it's been a very good year, although I had some negative moments, including the mourning for Chester Bennington's death that unexpectedly weighed on me.
Finally, this year a major change happened and I'm back to single status after almost 5 years; I won't go on about the reasons and all the things that relate to my breakup, anyway it's been my lowest point in the year, it has affected me deeply in every aspect and I'm still recovering, going back to studying and to my hobbies. This means I won't be able to graduate in the usual times and it'll take a bit longer, but whatever, I'm not competing in any race so I'll take my time to do things well.
So, that's a synopsis of my life from 2016 to 2018, and I guess I'll go back to uploading pics from time to time as I have many of them so far. Thanks to everyone who's started watching me, added my works in their fave lists and given me llamas and comments while I was mostly absent, hope to get some feedback from you guys under this post.
xx
I figured out that it's been a long time since the last time I wrote a journal here, although some months ago I started uploading stuff again (mostly pics taken in my occasional trips), so here I am!
The last journal I wrote dates to 2 years ago; many things happened in the meanwhile.
In 2016 I lost another relative, some personal bad stuff happened and at the end of the year my younger cat Minou we adopted back in September 2015 died. Also I put an end to some friendships that were becoming toxic to me.
In 2017 I made several new friends, including some musicians, and these friendships were quite impacting; overall it's been a very good year, although I had some negative moments, including the mourning for Chester Bennington's death that unexpectedly weighed on me.
Finally, this year a major change happened and I'm back to single status after almost 5 years; I won't go on about the reasons and all the things that relate to my breakup, anyway it's been my lowest point in the year, it has affected me deeply in every aspect and I'm still recovering, going back to studying and to my hobbies. This means I won't be able to graduate in the usual times and it'll take a bit longer, but whatever, I'm not competing in any race so I'll take my time to do things well.
So, that's a synopsis of my life from 2016 to 2018, and I guess I'll go back to uploading pics from time to time as I have many of them so far. Thanks to everyone who's started watching me, added my works in their fave lists and given me llamas and comments while I was mostly absent, hope to get some feedback from you guys under this post.
xx
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Songs that impacted me
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Rules:
1. Choose seven songs that have impacted you
2. Name of song and band
3. How did they?
4. Tag at least 3 deviants
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1. Linkin Park - Numb
I listened to this song for the first time when I was 10 thanks to a Dragon Ball Z AMV on Youtube and yeah, it impacted me because I had never heard anything similar before; until a certain age I only listened to what was on TV or radio, even though I was already a bit into rock (it was the music I listened to more willingly, I already knew some songs from Evanescence or Green Day when I was 10) and nothing was like this. Useless to say, in the years I've kept going on listening to Linkin Park and I actually like them a lot, but I don't define myself as a "true fan".
2. Cinema Bizarre - Lovesongs (They kill me)
Well, Cinema Bizarre has been my first serious band crush just at the start of my teen age and I particularly loved this song of theirs; it speaks about feeling out of place, feeling hurt by the others, I related to these lyrics as well as to others. This band is one of the biggest reasons why I am the way I am now, they made me learn that it's okay to be different and to dress as I like and they've been a big part of my life.
3. Black Veil Brides - Lost it all
It isn't the first song of this band I listened to (that one was "Knives and pens", found through Youtube suggestions), but I think it impacted my life because the band's third album came out in one of my darkest times of the last years, I cried the first time I listened to this song and I felt like some songs of the album kinda "spoke" to me, I felt like this music could understand me as if being a real person. That's why I finally became a BVB fan and I still am, even though not obsessing over them as I did before.
4. System Of A Down - Toxicity
Speaking again of songs I listened to casually... I listened to this song for the first time in my dad's jeep, he didn't know he had this song in his music database, but my sister's bf (the one she was with at that time) said "Please let it play!" and so I listened for the first time to this band, finding that the sound was very very original. During the years I've found some other songs of them I liked like "Chop suey" and "Aerials" that is one of my fave songs from them, and the last years I definitely became a fan of them, a kind of late fan but better late than never, no?
5. Godsmack - I stand alone
This song has impacted my life in a way that's different from the other songs' way of affecting my life: for this song it happened as for the n°1 song of this list, I discovered it thanks to a DBZ AMV but I didn't know the title nor the artist. Through all these years, I occasionally went back to my researches hoping to find it; thanks to a site (I don't remember its name right now) and to the little bit I remembered I found out two songs that kinda sounded like this song ("Fight for all the wrong reasons" by Nickelback and also "Aerials" by SOAD), but only this year I found it thanks to SongPop, a game I play on Facebook, because the song appeared in a playlist called "2000's Hard Rock" and I was unbelievably happy when I became sure it was the song I seeked for 10 long years!
6. Disturbed - Indestructible
Even though I don't define myself as a Disturbed fan I actually appreciate their music and my bf is a fan of theirs. This song came to have an impact on my life because I listened to it a lot during my last rough periods, giving me strength and convincing me that I might really be "indestructible" and someone the "enemies" would have to recognize as "invincible"; not because of a physical strength, but just because of an inner, spiritual strength that kept me going through all these years and through many dark times (loss of friends, drama caused by ex friends and the pain of discovering their lies, the loss of my grandparents, etc.), in spite of being sometimes so tired of fighting I said "I wouldn't mind if tomorrow I didn't wake up". I'm actually considering to add the name of this song to the design of the first tattoo I'll get because this word now means a lot to me.
7. Ricky Martin ft. Meja - Private emotion
Yeah, I'm such a rock and metal fan but I also have a very soft side and I still listen to some of the stuff I listened to when I was a child. This song could be another one in a possible list named "Songs I discovered casually", I listened to it for the first time when I was like 5-6 years old and liked a lot the sound; some time ago I re-listened to it after a long time and now that I'm older and that I know English better I understood what the song is about. (Just so you know, this song is actually in the playlist for my SOAD story, I thought it could fit the story haha)
Tagging:
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, thanks for the tag! Rules:
1. Choose seven songs that have impacted you
2. Name of song and band
3. How did they?
4. Tag at least 3 deviants
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1. Linkin Park - Numb
I listened to this song for the first time when I was 10 thanks to a Dragon Ball Z AMV on Youtube and yeah, it impacted me because I had never heard anything similar before; until a certain age I only listened to what was on TV or radio, even though I was already a bit into rock (it was the music I listened to more willingly, I already knew some songs from Evanescence or Green Day when I was 10) and nothing was like this. Useless to say, in the years I've kept going on listening to Linkin Park and I actually like them a lot, but I don't define myself as a "true fan".
2. Cinema Bizarre - Lovesongs (They kill me)
Well, Cinema Bizarre has been my first serious band crush just at the start of my teen age and I particularly loved this song of theirs; it speaks about feeling out of place, feeling hurt by the others, I related to these lyrics as well as to others. This band is one of the biggest reasons why I am the way I am now, they made me learn that it's okay to be different and to dress as I like and they've been a big part of my life.
3. Black Veil Brides - Lost it all
It isn't the first song of this band I listened to (that one was "Knives and pens", found through Youtube suggestions), but I think it impacted my life because the band's third album came out in one of my darkest times of the last years, I cried the first time I listened to this song and I felt like some songs of the album kinda "spoke" to me, I felt like this music could understand me as if being a real person. That's why I finally became a BVB fan and I still am, even though not obsessing over them as I did before.
4. System Of A Down - Toxicity
Speaking again of songs I listened to casually... I listened to this song for the first time in my dad's jeep, he didn't know he had this song in his music database, but my sister's bf (the one she was with at that time) said "Please let it play!" and so I listened for the first time to this band, finding that the sound was very very original. During the years I've found some other songs of them I liked like "Chop suey" and "Aerials" that is one of my fave songs from them, and the last years I definitely became a fan of them, a kind of late fan but better late than never, no?
5. Godsmack - I stand alone
This song has impacted my life in a way that's different from the other songs' way of affecting my life: for this song it happened as for the n°1 song of this list, I discovered it thanks to a DBZ AMV but I didn't know the title nor the artist. Through all these years, I occasionally went back to my researches hoping to find it; thanks to a site (I don't remember its name right now) and to the little bit I remembered I found out two songs that kinda sounded like this song ("Fight for all the wrong reasons" by Nickelback and also "Aerials" by SOAD), but only this year I found it thanks to SongPop, a game I play on Facebook, because the song appeared in a playlist called "2000's Hard Rock" and I was unbelievably happy when I became sure it was the song I seeked for 10 long years!
6. Disturbed - Indestructible
Even though I don't define myself as a Disturbed fan I actually appreciate their music and my bf is a fan of theirs. This song came to have an impact on my life because I listened to it a lot during my last rough periods, giving me strength and convincing me that I might really be "indestructible" and someone the "enemies" would have to recognize as "invincible"; not because of a physical strength, but just because of an inner, spiritual strength that kept me going through all these years and through many dark times (loss of friends, drama caused by ex friends and the pain of discovering their lies, the loss of my grandparents, etc.), in spite of being sometimes so tired of fighting I said "I wouldn't mind if tomorrow I didn't wake up". I'm actually considering to add the name of this song to the design of the first tattoo I'll get because this word now means a lot to me.
7. Ricky Martin ft. Meja - Private emotion
Yeah, I'm such a rock and metal fan but I also have a very soft side and I still listen to some of the stuff I listened to when I was a child. This song could be another one in a possible list named "Songs I discovered casually", I listened to it for the first time when I was like 5-6 years old and liked a lot the sound; some time ago I re-listened to it after a long time and now that I'm older and that I know English better I understood what the song is about. (Just so you know, this song is actually in the playlist for my SOAD story, I thought it could fit the story haha)
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Contest + Commissions ?
2 min read
Hi guys!
Yesterday I wrote a status update about thinking of taking commissions, but I figured out that maybe a journal entry is better, so here I am
I was thinking of doing something, like, taking commissions for very cheap prices (max 5 €) or doing a contest to give some llamas and commissions and gain some more watchers, it'd be the first time I do things like these...
About the contest, I was thinking of hosting a contest about finding a prompt for a story, so who wants to join can create a prompt for a story based on some characteristics I've chosen and the winner gets a commission and a llama (I don't think I can give points or core because of the money requirement)
Tell me if you like the idea and if you would join!
At the moment I'm very busy studying, so if everything is okay I'll have some free time in February from 8th to 14th and then some even after (my courses start again on February 15th)
Stay tuned and see you soon xoxo
Yesterday I wrote a status update about thinking of taking commissions, but I figured out that maybe a journal entry is better, so here I am
I was thinking of doing something, like, taking commissions for very cheap prices (max 5 €) or doing a contest to give some llamas and commissions and gain some more watchers, it'd be the first time I do things like these...
About the contest, I was thinking of hosting a contest about finding a prompt for a story, so who wants to join can create a prompt for a story based on some characteristics I've chosen and the winner gets a commission and a llama (I don't think I can give points or core because of the money requirement)
Tell me if you like the idea and if you would join!
At the moment I'm very busy studying, so if everything is okay I'll have some free time in February from 8th to 14th and then some even after (my courses start again on February 15th)
Stay tuned and see you soon xoxo
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Warning
1 min read
Hey guys, I won't be very active in this month since I'm studying for my exams, so I won't be regular with the updates of my SOAD story and of my works... I'm sorry but I'm so busy and there are issues every now and then, bear with me please T_T
Hope you guys are doing fine! See you soon xoxo
Hope you guys are doing fine! See you soon xoxo
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Hi guys!
I'm still alive, don't worry, just being quite busy... (my first exams are in January and I'm already anxious, SHIIIITTTT) I've been able to scan my last drawings recently but I have to wait to upload them here, I hope you'll like them :3 there's my first SOAD related drawing among them (I hope there will be more SOAD drawings, but I have to do some practice first ahah)! *-*
I went back to university today after being at home for the weekend and I already can't wait to go back home for Christmas, I'm already Christmas spirited
Stay tuned, see you soon xoxo
I'm still alive, don't worry, just being quite busy... (my first exams are in January and I'm already anxious, SHIIIITTTT) I've been able to scan my last drawings recently but I have to wait to upload them here, I hope you'll like them :3 there's my first SOAD related drawing among them (I hope there will be more SOAD drawings, but I have to do some practice first ahah)! *-*
I went back to university today after being at home for the weekend and I already can't wait to go back home for Christmas, I'm already Christmas spirited
Stay tuned, see you soon xoxo
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